Mindfight

Pointless is what I thought. I'm sick and tired and have no freaking idea of what to write about. I just need ... I just need a push to get me rolling, I need a hand a word that will encourage me.
So tell me what is that you are doing now? what are you messing around with? I'm tired of trying but I cant just simply send everything to chaos and simply give up. I simply don't find myself.... I should probably get my guitar and get doing something useful such as reading the bible.
This can be considered mindless but when your bored just type, just type and write what your mind is thinking. I need a break, but wait oh tomorrow I have to go back to school.... time flies and I can't control it. I'm bored and disappointed with myself and my attitude. Yeah it's really easy to say it and type it and stuff but doing something about it is the hard part. sometimes I feel so small and so incapable of achieving great things.... gosh how can I be so pessimistic. I'm letting my problems blind me and not looking at the big picture. I won't expect you to read it or even write a comment after all I know what the answer should be. It's all in the bible..... QUE NECIO QUE SOY!
Things are a mess but I'm just looking at the little picture and not at the big picture that allows me to overcome myself and become better and more like Christ. I guess I should just end this mindless fight by saying that through this time God wants me to be ''Strong and Courageous'' just as he told Joseph a long time ago and also to remember that I AM NOT ALONE, BUT GOD IS AND WILL BE WITH ME ALWAYS!.
Oh well it's never too late to start... I just needed a break to write a mindfight... if you ever come to this website you'll find a lot of them cause right now I'm just 15 and I still have a long way to go and when I'll come back here I'll see how much I've changed and how much I've fought with my worldly mind and flesh and how step by step I will overcome myself to be more like Christ.

''For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain'' Phillipians 1:21

Live the Present

My Wasted Life
Manuel Nivia
(Based on ''Rising Five - Norman Nicholson'')

Everyday I see people rushing, people wanting things to be when they want them, people wanting to become forgetting about being. Oh, what a reflection of my own wasted life. This brings me a quick memory of myself. I always dreamed of becoming, always becoming.
As a kid I always wanted more, wanted to be taller than my mates, wanted to be older... older than my mates which unfortunately wouldn't always happen. I longed for power, knowledge, strength and wanted them immediately. I always thought about the achievements of others or what others were or the positions they had forgetting about who I was. I always thought about who I could be or where I could get and forgot where I was. Always looking forward, to what is to come, to what is to come...
Everything seemed so slow, nothing really moved or got farther, and when I got there I was already dreaming of something else, something to come... Reminds me that I wanted a girlfriend and failures did not take the dream away, but when I got it I was already looking towards something bigger, which brought me down again to the floor.
I finished school, finished college, found a job then retired. I achieved what I desired. But now I think it's all a waste, because I always worried about becoming and forgot the meaning of life... It's all about being. For there will always be a future but only once a present.