Mindfight

Pointless is what I thought. I'm sick and tired and have no freaking idea of what to write about. I just need ... I just need a push to get me rolling, I need a hand a word that will encourage me.
So tell me what is that you are doing now? what are you messing around with? I'm tired of trying but I cant just simply send everything to chaos and simply give up. I simply don't find myself.... I should probably get my guitar and get doing something useful such as reading the bible.
This can be considered mindless but when your bored just type, just type and write what your mind is thinking. I need a break, but wait oh tomorrow I have to go back to school.... time flies and I can't control it. I'm bored and disappointed with myself and my attitude. Yeah it's really easy to say it and type it and stuff but doing something about it is the hard part. sometimes I feel so small and so incapable of achieving great things.... gosh how can I be so pessimistic. I'm letting my problems blind me and not looking at the big picture. I won't expect you to read it or even write a comment after all I know what the answer should be. It's all in the bible..... QUE NECIO QUE SOY!
Things are a mess but I'm just looking at the little picture and not at the big picture that allows me to overcome myself and become better and more like Christ. I guess I should just end this mindless fight by saying that through this time God wants me to be ''Strong and Courageous'' just as he told Joseph a long time ago and also to remember that I AM NOT ALONE, BUT GOD IS AND WILL BE WITH ME ALWAYS!.
Oh well it's never too late to start... I just needed a break to write a mindfight... if you ever come to this website you'll find a lot of them cause right now I'm just 15 and I still have a long way to go and when I'll come back here I'll see how much I've changed and how much I've fought with my worldly mind and flesh and how step by step I will overcome myself to be more like Christ.

''For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain'' Phillipians 1:21